Amateure Stuff

faith

2011-12-19T22:23:00.002+07:00

Hingga pada masanya tiba, keputusan sudah ada.
Semua perlu limit agar manusia dapat menjalani hidup sebagai implementasi dari rasa percayanya terhadap takdir Allah swt.
Dan hidup harus terus berjalan dengan perubahan ke arah kebaikan.
Ketika semua itu berbuah, akan menjadi sangat indah.
Seindah ketika menjalankan keputusan itu dengan ikhlas.
Ikhlas akan takdir Allah atas jerih payah kita dalam menjalani keputusan kita.

Missing you

2011-12-08T22:25:00.003+07:00

Really yearning at him already..

I no need a ring, but commitment is enough

I no need a luxury gown, but white-simple gown is enough

I no need get marry attended by a thousand people, but our family blessing is enough

I no need a big house, but a small-comfy "home" is enough

I no need personal vehicle, but going by the train or bus together is enough

I no need having birth in expensive hospital with the best doctor, but knowing u see first when my baby born is enough

I no need a lot of toys for my child, but giving them my time to play together is enough

I no need a perfect husband, but beloved husband is enough

Indeed really missing you rite now......

Hopping to Belitung Island

2011-10-12T22:42:00.019+07:00

It`s really couldn`t imagine before that finally I could make it realized. Yes it was... One of my obsession this year is go to the Belitung (they said Belitong) island. I really inspired by Laskar Pelangi (love it so much). It`s really simplify about the preparation and the little obstacle occured to the "H" day. We`ve been prepared this a few months ago, but unfortunately we couldn`t make it in the "H" day. But lucky me to have him, he arranged and rescheduled into October. Yes, finally we decided to take vacation (not in holiday), really our vacation.

To many questions I got from my friends in the office. They really wonder what will I do during my vacation. Hehehe and sorry to you all that allowed you to have your own opinion about me. But this is the answer. I went to Belitong, guys.....

Ah.....

1st day: Mainland Beaches

We took Batavia Airlines because it`s the cheapest fare to go to Belitong from Jakarta. Unfortunately because reschedule, we got extra charge. And again price can`t lie. We got delay for almost 1 hour, but it so much treated by fast flight. It took just 50 minutes to go there. When departed, we met our guide (yah, we decided to used tour travel to this vacation). His name is "Bang Yadi". He really shore-man-alike. A dark-skin with the particular accent (melayu accent).

Drizzling. Yes... we got obstacle but that really didn`t matter for us.

We went to Tanjung Tinggi (Laskar Pelangi`s movie site)

Tanjung Tinggi Beach

In the evening we got back to the hotel, the named is Bukit Berahu. It`s a cottage with the beach in front of the cottage. Then we go to Tanjung Kelayang beach because we didn`t have enough time to get snorkeling.

Bukit Berahu hotel with the beach in front

Tanjung Kelayang

In the night we went to Tanjung Pandan (the first time we arrived) and ate seafood. That`s so amazing about the seafood. Really tasty.....

2nd day: Island Hopping

drizzling. But we still had some spirit to enjoy our vacation. After taking a breakfast, we went to Tanjung Kelayang beach to get a boat that brought us into some island surround Belitong. We went to the north. We do island hopping... Yay...

We step by in Batu Berlayar, big granit-rock in the middle of the sea.

after that we planned to hop to the "Pulau Lengkuas", but unfortunately again because the wheater is getting worse. The drizzle changed into hard rain and made waving... Then we turned over to the "Pulau Burung". Why it`s called like this, it`s just because there was a big-bird-alike-rock. We take a shelter because the rain is so heavy with the southwest-wind blowing. After calm, we learned snorkling. Yup... none of us can swim. Hihihi so we learned to use googgle or snorkeler with of course life vest.

How dark the cloud

Snorkeling-learner

Bang Yadi, Our guide

Pulau Burung, the rock was bird-alike

(even our picture really so blur)

even the rain is a little bit heavy in the middle of our vacation, there`s still spirit and hope to have a good weather. Then we hopped to the "Pulau Lengkuas" with the lighthouse. We take our lunch here before we went to "Pulau Babi Kecil" to do snorkel. In "Pulau Babi Kecil" we stop in the middle of the sea. Oh my god, this is the first time for me to snorkel in the middle of the sea with no capability in swimming. Really obvious mingle to the absurd thing that I really curious even bit scared. But really my curiousity was the winner. I downed the gangplank, instead of jumping of course, try to float in the sea. And I try to drown my head into the sea and oh my god,,,, that`s almost 6 meters depth and I just floated. Really my heart beated rapidly. I try to enjoy even my fear couldn`t be hided. And so he did. I knew that he felt the same with me... Hihihihi

Then the fisherman persuaded me to snorkel little bit far from the boat and of course I just hold on his hand.. Really I said "yes". I even didn`t think about the risk (maybe my life vest was so thin then I can sink hehehe). I snorkeled about 50 meters far from the boat. Really it was so exhausted. I feel my leg so exhausted plus my throat felt dry. That`s approximately about 30 minutes to 1 hours.. The coral, fish ( I found nemo, stingrays...yeyeye), sea urchin, and really that`s so wonderfull. Really fabulous vacation (I quote from him...hmmm).

I don`t know how to describe again. But surely you have to visit here. And I just realized something. That Indonesia have so many beautiful island with of course beautiful beaches. Just try to love our things first before the other`s things.

3th day: City Tour

Time to do city tour alias looking for something unique here. And just not felt it`s been 3 days and means go back to the reality. Back to the wild life, Jakarta, with the busy things.

The moral lesson:

Love Indonesia because it had so many beautiful place to visit
Try to keep the nature
let plan the other vacation and make it happen :)

too sensitive

2011-08-30T16:09:00.002+07:00

Being too sensitive is really bothering me alot. Sometimes I just beared the sensitiveness alone without letting other know that I bother with their opinion or just un-important talk to me. Some of that words really not important to be talked, but why people just can't think first before speak.

I always try to be an easy going person and respect others, but why sometimes i get hurt with all that stuff of talking. Ready or not and that just was an uneasy condition whether i really hate to be sensitive.

Uhmmm is there any way to ignore about what people say about us?

women in chasing the best time

2011-08-16T22:28:00.005+07:00

Just wondering when the best time for women to marry? Still so many argue about it. Some people say that women shouldn`t marry above 28. But some of them think that above 30 is oke because carrier is more important. But I have my own opinion on that. I have my own that I called mid-term to get marry. 26 - 28 I guess is the good and the precise time for women to have a new family. Why?

because the women is more mature than men. She grows one step a head from men. It means that women in the same age of the men, has her maturity with the aging grown a head also. Men can look like just an early 30, but what about women? With the same age, men younger and more fresh than women. So it is called by aging start from 30 to women stuff;
women has shorter fertility than a men. That`s why no wonder so many elder (above 70 years-old-men can have another young wife and have a child). Men has longer limit to produce their fertility. It means that God knows that women has great responsibility to grow up their child nor to pregnant again (this is not eligble to my mom, hehe because she already got their new child "shaquilla" on her 42 years-old);
women always think about their future. above 25 -> get marry, early 30 -> has 2 years toddlers while preparing the second-baby-program, 35 -> good self-actualization within the nice children with a wonderfull-helpfull-and loveable-husband, 40 -> the toddlers grown up and become a good children then teenager.... and so until the time to have the time to retire and just enjoy with the family.
women really need a preparation about physically and mentally about having a children. So many women have a baby-blues-syndrome after giving birth. most of them because they had no idea about having a baby. How to take care of, to comfort, to feed, to hold even to bath. Some of them enjoy having a baby but they don`t realize that they have their syndrome so makes they stress out and just cry. So what the responsibility of a husband in here? A men should know about it and understand about how hard it is. They just have to do all that kind of stuff hand in hand. Just limit the ego and that`s about called family-step.
ship needs a dock to anchor. So does women. They need men to rely on. Need a shoulder to cry on. And need to serve with. That`s about dedication. They willing to dedicate their life just for their family with their best effort. They will do everything just to make a really good-family with a good family-education. So when somebody have a great life just see their mom.
women also have their needs. So don`t be hypocrite and just admit that the needs should be fullfilled.

joyfull moment I ever promised

2011-07-10T23:45:00.004+07:00

Telah diprotes karena aku telah berjanji untuk men-share the joyfull momment...
Ehm.... beberapa bulan yang lalu memang pernah mewujudkan salah satu resolusiku di tahun ini.. Yaitu pergi ke Gunung Bromo..

Learn to have that courage

2011-07-10T23:17:00.003+07:00

This is almost a month that I ain`t upload or share something....
Actually life is always going and I am a learner. Learning to grow up. Learning to make other happy. Learning to compromize with the condition and the things is deal with time. That`s about time.

When we still thought about the past then we can`t move forward.
Actually I don`t have any courage to share about what just happened in my life. But I promise, I will do it later...
I wanna make my self confidence with this kind of thing. And someday you`ll know what makes me so confidence.

she's out of my life (most recently played)

2011-06-11T21:46:00.002+07:00

Recently i just like to hear she's out of my life from michael jackson.
Well i just love the song.
Here the lyric:

She's out of my life
She's out of my life
And I don't know whether to laugh or cry
I don't know whether to live or die
And it cuts like a knife
She's out of my life

It's out of my hands
It's out of my hands
To think for two years she was here
And I took her for granted,
I was so cavalier Now,
the way that it stands
She's out of my hands

So, I've learned that love's not possession
And I've learned that love won't wait Now,
I've learned that love needs expression
But, I've learned too late

And she's out of my life
She's out of my life
Damned indecision and cursed pride
Kept my love for her locked deep inside
And it cuts like a knife
She's out of my life

never felt this way - brian mcknight

2011-05-29T20:52:00.002+07:00

There will never come a day
You'd ever hear me say
That I want and need to be without you
I want to give my all Baby just hold me,
simply control me Cause your arms,
they keep away the lonelies
When I look into your eyes
Then I realize That all I need is you in my life
All I need is you in my life

Cause I've never felt this way about lovin'
Never felt so good
Never felt this way about lovin'
It feels so good

How it takes my breath
Starts a burning in my chest
Make me weak, when I think about you
Makes me want to give my all Life wouldn't mean a thing
Not a happy song to sing
Just emptiness if I had to live without you
When I look into your eyes
Then I realize That all I need is you in my life
All I need is you in my life

Let it flow

2011-05-25T22:04:00.003+07:00

Hey, finally I did what I really wanna do for longest time. I walked from my office to my boarding house. Not really that far. It just took + 30 minutes to walk. And it`s really fun. Walked alone in the night even maybe the polution is can hardly bear. Overall I think it will gonna my fav activity instead of work out. I can spend time. Enjoy by myself. Quite fun. There is so much way to enjoy "me time". And I took the positive way.

Walking in the middle of the night by myself is my next target. And I will have others to do list and for the hope that I have, I surely can do that.

I already took so many positive things about everything happened in my life recently. And I really wanna say thank you so much to:

My beloved Mom. Maybe this is the first time I rely my head to your shoulder, rub your back, and rub your belly (your baby is growing, mom). I really so much proud to have mom like you. You can always give the positive solve and there`s nothing I could say that I really love you.
My lovely sister. I knew that we used to be horrable sibling before. We have our ego for long time. But since I realized that you are the only, I really do care about you. I really wanna make you, mom, and dad always be happy. I`ll do everything for you.
My room-mates that I often rely on, Putri Petzy, for the time - for your willingness to hear everything - for your ability to understand my position - for your kindness - and for your suggest. Yah, you are so da*nly right. Life must goes on. And I don`t have to blow up everything in my heart (about my feeling) anymore. Stop letting somebody else know about how hurt it was. Stop blaming my self. Stop thinking the fearness. Stop stop and stop. Hahaha "Nasi sudah menjadi bubur". Just let it flow and keep smile.

P.S:

For my sister, get well soon. I will come back to home again soon. And I just wanna see that you are in okay... I promise will do everything for you and our family (also our little sist/bro)

Believe in Hope

2011-05-21T16:38:00.003+07:00

It`s been so long since my last post.First I wanna say thanks to Naila for the award yopu gave to me. And there`re so many things happened in my life. Life is always growing, changing, or even just maybe stating. I've had so many joyfull things (but suddenly its turn around and faced me and slaped on my face). I got the worse things in my life (about my feeling). But once again, that's life and there`s so much way to get the positive things inside.

Well, I can`t lie that right now I get hurt. Really hurt. There`s nothing I could do. I just keep everything ruined and messed up. That`s only because of me. Because my indecission and my ego. Actually I wanna share u my joyfull moment, but I think it`s more appropriate when I share it in a good time (not now, sorry..).

I`ve hurt some people surrounded me. I just be the bitchiest and you know what, all I really feel now is regretfull. I apologized to YOU (I`ve ever mentioned u before) for any mistakes and for the indecission. I really don`t mean that. Still I believe in hope. I knew that now u are really in so much pain and sick of tired of being in hard feeling. What really true is I always pray the best for everything. I can`t do more than that.

And now still I believe in hope.

Be clever with your body

2011-04-29T11:25:00.010+07:00

Well...it's been so long since my last post. There're a lot things happened in my life.

After the last-enthusiatic-outing (rafting), I was infected varicella virus. Yah, in my age this is the first time for me to get chickenpox. Oh... that's horrible.. I got high fever for several times for almost 1 week and when I went to Surabaya, I just realized that I got rash in my body..

For the first time I didn't recognize that it`s chickenpox until I searched in mayoclinic.com about my symptoms and point to the chickenpox. I tried to ignore my fever for the first time, but the rash was shown that I got chickenpox.

Back from Surabaya, I rushed to see the docter to check my condition. And just like I thought before, she said that I got chickenpox. The aweful thing is I`ve to take a rest at least 1 week.

I searched a lot about chickenpox. And thanks to my college, mbak novi, giving me link in milissehat. I got a lot information in milis sehat and mayoclinic (now I really concern about the health).

In second day after I went to the docter, I decided to stop taking the drug and ointment. That's the difficult thing, because I have to convinced my self that virus just couldn't be cured with any drug. So, I decided to take good-compotition of meal and drink juice and milk. I just increased my endurance. Hahaha even I didn't tell my family that I got sick in my boarding house. I pretended that I'm very good that time. Yah, then for sure I really got bore for almost 1 week, but I couldn't endure to not go to office. After 1 week, I decided to go to office. Yah,, seems nothing happened, I just started my-daily-routine at office. And thanks God, I just got several papules and rash (got 3 in my face,,,,).

My rash in arm (day 2)

And that`s really work... when we got something to be concern about body-warning, just care about yourself. Don't ignore any symptom and we have to be clever if we want to be more healthier.

XOXO,

Intan

Gathering of BPJT (Rafting)

2011-03-22T20:30:00.009+07:00

Last saturday I had a gathering with some of my work-mates (I called so). We`re goin to Citarik River. Yes, we are. Finally I could feel it. Yay... that's true... rafting is one in my must do list in this year. And so thankfull that I could make it realize just in an early year. We gathered in the office and started to go at 8.30 a.m. We`ve goin through ciawi and bad thing was always got an congestion there (sorry mas bambang, we're already don't know batu tulis yet). Arrived in Citarik at 1 p.m. The first time to do was having lunch.. Hahaha we just got starving. We just started to go to the river at 2.30 p.m and the challenge begun.

It took approximately 2 hours to raft in 9 km, but unfortunately the water discharge was the half. So many of our boat lodged in the rock. The instructor said that we have to come back when the debit is swift (is about october-december), and I think that`s much be challenged. Hum.. maybe we should take the camping package + painball + rafting... Ohhh love love love to do extreme one.. so what`s next guys???

Officially deactived my twitter

2011-03-13T22:10:00.006+07:00

Humphh... since today, I officially deactived my twitter.

Reason?

I really do love writting. So much. No other reason why for the first time I decided to have an twitter account. For the first time I really don't even know how to use, what the advantage using twitter. Just pure for fullfilling my curiousity why americans really fond of about twitter. And time went by, I became yah just say "little addict", no no not yet become an addict one but way to go "addict" is seemingly obvious. I became an "ignorance-one". Almost updating my status, hahaha when somebody nearby, still can't let my phone away (that's very bad,, very very bad habbit).

For any reason, I really don't want to be an "ignorance-one" anymore.

That's all? -> No, of course not...

Twitter just having 160 characters for us to write. Hump... I ever got terrible tussle wif my boyfie just because I slang on my twitter and he read that (got me..). But still after that, I insist to use it and suddenly he deactived his account. Hempp but that's happened for so long ago. And this is happened to me again for second times. But the diffrent thing is the object. I got misinterpretation with one of my friend (and unluckyly I started). Really I hate being sensitive and I hate being fussy (for one momment, I really want to seal my lip).

160 characters is not enough to share what I feel (for the real interpretation), and it happened. Yah, I decided to deactive my account.

For my friend, sorry that's tottaly my start. But still there's any thing I have to choose. And I choose to communicate my thought by writing in appropriate-way. And blog or my journal maybe still the best way.

Gotcha (Part I)

2011-02-27T22:11:00.008+07:00

Ow ow.... "Secret admirer"

Stoppp kissin' me :)

"Bukan Bang Toyib" bukan juga "wali"

Please don't disturb

Wkakakaka... Sorry Joe, I can't keep it. It`s too good to ignore

Bhahaha always laugh when thinking bot ur outrageous. "Hormat grakkkkk" bhahaha

Travel to the South Sulawesi

2011-02-18T15:12:00.023+07:00

Last week I went to Makassar (south sulawesi) to do some monitoring in toll road. First time in my mind was Makassar will be terribly hot and I just pulled in to century bought sunblock. Hahaha yes I am.. The preparation is totally "rempong". I don't wanna talk about my job. Here I just wanna talk about my-enjoyness-vacation. Eating, eating, and eating... Rgggghhhh

Bakso Nyuknyang (don't know why called it so)

The most lazizness "Pisang Epek" or Bananna Press (the driver said)

The freshness "Es sarang burung walet"

"Buras" (similiar to lontong)

The second day in South Sulawesi spent with meeting and in the afternoon me and Mrs. Yuli (one of my boss) went to Bantimurung. I already read the article about Bantimurung before. We could see the waterfall and butterfly breeding sites, but unfortunately I didn't see the breeding sites because it`s already evening and became twilight.

in front of Bantimurung gate

The waterfall was amazing

The 3th day, We (me, Mrs. Yulli and Mr. Admin-the driver) went to Bira Beach, Bulukumba. It`s about 200 km from Makassar. Normally it`s taken 3 hours but we took almost 5 hours to travel because the bad road condition (hahaha PU esp Bina Marga's homeworks again). From Makassar you will passed several districts, such as Gowa, Takalar, Jeneponto, Bantaeng, then Bulukumba for the destiny. Bira beach is located in Bulukumba. The beach was really stunning. Beautifull-white-sand surrounded by coral, but the shoreline is not long enough. Appart from the shortness of shoreline, I really enjoy my holiday (out of my jobs of course) so much. In the evening, we (duo) walked down to the beach; took some pictures, sat in the beachside, drank coca-cola while ate some peanuts, saw people play arround. Oh that`s so long I ain't enjoy the nature. And it`s totally worked. I feel fresh now. And it`s time to plan another itinerary. Enjoy the pictures.

The beach in the morning

The airport (See ya Makassar, we'll meet u soon)

Lovely Corner

2011-02-04T17:56:00.011+07:00

One of my bestie said "why birthday just to be an ordinary day? It must be a special day", then I turn it into my best weekend. I decided (very quick decision) to buy ticket to go home. Oh really miss home badly. And Here I am now, on my yearning-room with warm-light as my favorite lamp. I really love warm-light (I guess I`ll buy a warm-light for my room in jakarta). And as usual I love just "guling-guling" in my lovely bed (double bed but just only me but now my sist accompanying). Play around with her, chit chat and make her angry. Hahaha how vandalism I am.

And this is some of my lovely corner room.

I took with my nyxie-white, forgot to bring my SLR :'(

Some of my books (time to clean up the dust)

Time to "gulang guling"

thanks for my sist`s laptop

Behind of my window

The edge of my table (that`s two of my uncle n sist)

I found this under my table (grab it and get into my suitcase yay...)

where is my essay? hum...

mellowdramatic not a dramaqueen

2011-01-20T21:35:00.005+07:00

Yap betul sekali dua hari perasaan saya tak terkontrol, walaupun sudah bekerja keras mengedepankan logika tapi tetap kamu menang, rasa. Kemarin adalah pelantikan eselon 2 dan eselon 3 di Kementerian saya bekerja. Really that issue was trully happened. Disatu sisi saya turut bahagia because my boss is one on the list being inaugurated. Dia dilantik menjadi eselon 3 dan I`m really happy for him. Dan sebenarnya saya sudah sangat comfort menjadi staffnya. Sungguh saya tidak bisa menutupi betapa saya sangat kehilangan, mungkin menurut orang lain tindakan saya adalah sangat sangat lebai. But sekali lagi rasa tidak bisa membohongi logika atau pikiran kita. Dan entahlah nampaknya saya memang sangat membenci apa yang namanya perpisahan.

Hahaha ada salah satu teman-terbaik-saya begitu heran mengapa saya begitu feeling blue. Saking penasarannya dia mensuggest saya untuk mengganti playlist saya dengan spirit-booster-playlist. Yah dan malam ini saya menjalankan sarannya. Dan saya sekarang dalam keadaan kamar temaram, hanya cahaya laptop saya ditemani dengan playlist saya yang baru dan seperti biasa menulis memang dapat mengobati rasa antah berantah ini. Sekali lagi rasa tidak bisa dikelabui oleh pikiran atau logika dan memang sebaiknya kita tidak menghindari rasa aneh apapun itu (sedih, kecewa) tapi yang perlu saya lakukan saat ini adalah mengeluarkan rasa ini dan mengobatinya menjadi rasa yang normal itu. Jadi seperti kata teman-terbaik-saya itu lagi, Hey it`s normal being mellowdramatic and I absolutely not a drama queen. Mulai hari esok harus semangat, Ayo semangattttt

2011 Mind Map

2011-01-05T21:44:00.004+07:00

There are so many things I wanna do in this year. For almost 2 years I didn`t have any target to pursue. And now it`s time for me to wake up, begin to build my own dream and absolutely that will be the parameter to reach out.

I really thankfull to God for everything I have recently. Not about being rich people, but being adequate is the most important. Don`t have to be excessive person, but still to reach the success is still the priority.

I have something to remind and to execute several habits:

On my job`s thing:

- writing my journal in order

- keep thinking positive

- simply focusing on my job of course

- u start then u finish it

Self improvement:

- more reading books (other than just novel)

- keep smilling

- people said "jangan lebai"

- learn to be more patient and unselfish

For other people:

- give other compliment

- make others laugh

And I will think what should be add on this.

The euphoria just begin

2010-12-31T07:02:00.007+07:00

I`m very proud of indonesian supporter in GBK (Gelora Bung Karno, red). Even the Timnas couldn`t brought the AFF Trophy`s back, overall they`ve shown up the best thing for our country. The Timnas has conquered for 4 times (because one match they`re defeated). For the harsh thing that happened in Bukit Jalil is nothing for us. Nothing to be trending topic in anywhere. Just let them (Malay, red) do everything. But we still know how to be fair. The euphoria recently is just the beginning. And Its prove our (Indonesian) passion to be united is never overcast. Since the Sumpah Pemuda declared at Oktober 28 1928, we still hope Indonesian always to be a unite. One power, One passion to push Indonesia toward.

Here the picts when I watched the first match between Indonesia and Malaysia which is the final score is so awesome (5-1).

When the goal happened, it`s firework

Seems they were so small indeed

Our team

See this Sector, full of red troops

And this?

*sorry I didn`t retouch my picts,, I still learning bot it... Tengku.

Alur yang aneh dalam pikiranku

2010-12-03T12:30:00.002+07:00

Saya nggak tahu apa yang ada dipikiran saya saat ini. Tapi pastinya saya tahu bahwa di kepala saya begitu ruwet dengan pendapat-pendapat yang menurut saya kebanyakan orang tidak mungkin berpendapat seperti saya.

Jakarta, 3 Desember 2010

Hari dan tanggal ini bertepatan dengan hari Bhakti PU. Yang ada di benak saya adalah suasana upacara yang khidmat dengan adanya begitu banyak orang yang hadir + calon cpns baru dengan cuaca yang cerah. But that`s totally just imagination. It`s hard raining for almost 2 hours. Dan payahnya semangat saya untuk ikut upacara langsung kendur. Betapa mental ini sangat-sangat tidak bisa konsisten. Tapi tetap saya paksakan berangkat even saya tahu hal itu tidak membuktikan apapun dan tidak akan efektif.

Saya yakin bahwa apa yang saya punya sekarang adalah kekuatan alam (konspirasi universal) dan pastinya usaha dan keinginan Tuhan untuk saya menjadi sekarang. Terus terang saya terkadang adalah pengeluh. Tapi saya sadar itu tidak membawa saya ke arah yang lebih baik atau setidaknya yang saya inginkan. Terlepas dari itu saya tidak habis pikir banyak orang yang selalu mengeluh akan apa yang mereka punya. Kalau tidak sesuai ya harus extra kerja keras lagi. Jangan menengadahkan tangan dulu baru tolak pinggang. Saya terus berpikir apakah sikap saya ini termasuk ke dalam salah satu sikap yang disebut "nrimo". Saya pikir tidak karena saya bukan orang seperti itu. Saya tahu apa yang terjadi tapi saya hanya berpikir saya belum punya cukup kekuatan atau bahkan alam pun belum mau berkonspirasi. Jadi saya pikir, daripada mengeluh dan tidak ada jalan keluar lebih baik saya lakukan apa yang saya punya sekarang dengan sepenuh usaha dan keikhlasan. Jujur sampai saat ini saya masih belajar akan arti ikhlas dalam hal sebenarnya.

Confession

2010-11-16T15:13:00.003+07:00

It`s been a long time since my last post. I just got illness for a week last week. I did nothing in home. I just laid on my bed and there`s no desire to eat anything. There`s one day that everything I ate be throwed up and suddenly I have nothing inside of my stomach. I couldn`t eat well even when I woke up, I`ve got nausea and that`s I became so desperate.

Well, I have no time to hunt some pictures. But I promise I`ll do sooner.

See ya

Lebaran 2010

2010-09-27T20:44:00.004+07:00

As I ever said, I`ll upload my family`s pict in last lebaran. It always became so exhilarate when we massed and created a mess in home (hehehe piss grandpa)..

But this holiday I got very bad cough (I thought it was partusis alias 100 days cough), but I won`t want longer. Um maybe I should try to get influenza vaccine.

Me, my cousin, my grandpa

Me and My sista

Trio Macan? Don`t think so..Hahaahah

lost in the junle (2)

2010-09-22T12:28:00.007+07:00

This is part 2

The Ancestor (Who's damn said Darwin was trutfull)

Moloch or Morlock?

Ups No comment for this

Can u see the bird?

Hey you..don't look at me like that? I Know I pretty pretty enough

Dust in the rain or Dust in the glass?

Holiday in Semarang + Lost in the Jungle (1)

2010-09-22T10:57:00.012+07:00

Sorry to say that I didn`t upload anything for some time. Because last week were long holiday and time to mingle with my big family. Those were fun, but unfortunately I got very bad cough making me had to take some rest. Dissapointed for 2 days I just got fever and only lay down on bed. Kept taking some medicine, but not worked properly (until now). My neighbour-room-mate suggested to drink Propolis. She said it`ll make my body better and my boss said so. BUt I don't even know what`s goin on with me so that I ain't feel better. but I keep taking propolis instead the medicine (any medicine at all).

I wanna upload some photoes when I was in Semarang, but unfortunately I forgot to transfer my data into my laptop. Maybe I will next day.

Last saturday I went to Ragunan w/ my boy. It was fun. It was the first time to me to take some photoes using our new dslr. And I still learning the technique of photograpy.

hanging root

Who are you waiting for, huh?

This is Darwin`s thing

Watch your mouth

Perfect match

2010-09-05T12:07:00.002+07:00

ALready bought Nikon D3000 kit VR + sigma 28-300mm makro lense (even patungan wif udo)...
Yay...hayo hunting fotooooo

Don`t Adore Jakarta

2010-07-27T12:04:00.003+07:00

I dont know what`s goin on with me since I lived in Jakarta.
Everything seemed to be absurd and I even don`t have time to do my hobby. Actually I love to travel in new places, don`t have to go to out of town, but any place.

Actually I have many things to share about my vexations lived here.
I hate:
- Jakartan (I called most "Jakarta citizen") never obey the rules. They often run into the traffic light when its red and "bang"... accident happened.
- Jakartan don`t have any symphaty to feel the other situation such as If we want to cross the road, they even don`t want to wait until we cross it. they always want to be #1 to pass the road ASAP (they act just like the president either).
- Jakartan never think about the future.. the keep using their old cycle than choosing the alternative mass rapid transit such as busway.
- Jakartan are selfish. They only think what they wanna do and what the effect is last be part of they think about.

Overal I Hate the pollution and the behaviour of being dumb

TheSweetPrajabPUAngkatanXI

2010-07-05T16:43:00.007+07:00

It is for along time I ain`t upload anything... I was busy with prajab and some of works were making me so individual. I dont much time to post something I felt. But I think this is the time for me to share I already done....

Karaoke is one of our favorite and "Quando quando quando" is the romantic song ever

In class... Sleepyhead I am

SAy Cheers Guyyyssss

The Guys

The Girls

The Chatterbox and The Sleepyhead

Adore scarlett johansson

2010-05-04T13:28:00.007+07:00

2 days ago I went to cinema with my boyfirend. We`re watching Iron man 2. I was totally amazed by robert dawney adn you know what I think I`m fallin in love with scarlett johanson rite now...
She`s really charming with her skinny body and she`s so beautifull already...
I adore her so much and wanna have her body-alike. When I get my posture just such a similar to her (even just a part of her body-leg maybe).

Hahaha I know I`m little big addict with good body, but overall I won`t be body-minded.

Wanna Do Right Now

2010-04-29T15:52:00.007+07:00

Oh my god,,I really wanna buy a Digital SLR. I really fond of with this stuff. And you know what I just keep collecting my money and I have to keep my self stop shopping anything else,even I really adore,Shoes. Hahahaha.. and it`s still becoming my dream to have a DSLR and be good photograper (as a hobby I think).

The other is I really want to read some new comics and novels. Oh my oh my oh my.... PLease give me more time.. I really need more time than 24 hours instead.

He`s cute exactly

2010-04-16T23:55:00.001+07:00

He`s name is Lee min ho. And I really adore his apparance and face... Really cute with the tall body cut and extremly wanna meeting him someday. I`ll go to Seoul someday, have to.

I really want this

2010-04-13T12:37:00.002+07:00

This is jimmy choo. And I really want this...

Yoga mandala`s survey in Aceh

2010-04-13T12:30:00.002+07:00

This bike is belonging to yoga`s father friend. He`s addict to old bike.

Yay...the new photo will be shown up soon

2010-03-31T09:00:00.001+07:00

Yipi yey...my boy was coming back yesterday... It`s mean I can upload my photo again... See the news then...

no upload for a month

2010-03-08T09:45:00.000+07:00

fellas..sorry to say that for some weeks later I can`t upload my picture because My notebook and my camera was lend by my boy...so be patient for that

Hometown

2010-02-20T09:02:00.000+07:00

Next week is long weekend. There will be any holiday on friday, but unfortunately I can`t go home. I`m run out of ticketing. *sigh
And I opened my album, and I found some photoes of my hometown. ANd I don`t know why I suddenly miss my hometown.

Satu sudut polder Tawang

Semarang Great Mosque

In front of "Blenduk Curch"

A corner of Sam Poo Kong

I really miss hang out with both of them,,, :'(

My family

AMP

2010-02-14T12:13:00.000+07:00

On february 9th 2010, I and all my classmates were going to AMP. AMP is Asphalt Mixing Plant. This AMP is belong to my department. But now the name is no department longer. Its turn into ministry. We`re going there by bus. And not Executive neither Patas. It just have AC (angin cepoi-cepoi). There`s so hot in trip and so do in AMP.

Look at the chimney... it`s so dark dust come out. We`re feel so sultry. And that`s why I prevent to bring an umbrella..violla...it`s work for disputing the sun or dust touch my skin.

The longer one is exhaust dust.

Stone Crusher "Cone Type"

This is me. On tandem roller

farewell party

2010-02-13T07:44:00.000+07:00

Yesterday wouldn`t be forgeted. I and my friends went to Plaza Semanggi. We were going to inul vizta. And it`s fabolous and awesome. We are such a good connection. Some of us will be going to Balai Besar in some different area. I`m gonna miss you so much guys...

They were all dancing...enjoying music and singing

2010-01-31T08:44:00.000+07:00

Some fews ago, I`ve taken this picture from my second floor-wall-dorm. First I saw this picture, it`s quite nightmare. The sketch was so obvious. And in the night, I never want to see this picture. But the meaning of the writting is so meaningfull.

The silly pict

2010-01-30T18:06:00.000+07:00

This is a quite big scandal. NO no no just kidding. The big one`s my boyfriend. He is playing with her friends, Julian. They always go crazy.

"SKS tambahan" di Cikampek

2010-01-30T11:09:00.001+07:00

Mulai tanggal 11 Januari 2010 kemaren saya mengalami suatu kejadian yang saya pikir ini akan menjadi pelatihan pertama saya ketika saya masuk kerja. It was so excited first of all... Then yang lebih menyenangkan "pada awalnya" adalah bahwa kami akan menginap di "hotel". Yaps It became more enthusiasted.. Minggu pertama ternyata sudah menampakkan kebosanan dan minggu kedua menunjukkan kebodohan dan begitu pula minggu ketiga sudah menunjukkan kelelahan dikarenakan adanya "SKS tambahan" di sana. Kami melakukan praktikum aspal, agregat, dan tanah. Yaya... I rack my brain..

And you know what I have 4 roomates and they were going crazy all the time and always do the silly things
Dan para wanita-wanita itu adalah saya, mbak elle, yu` dina, yu` sari, dan puput. Entah apa yang terjadi mbak elle selalu tidur paling cepat dan selalu nggak mau ada waktu yang terbuang untuk online...yah She`s freak of net. Sedangkan yu` Sari, saya rasa adalah wanita yang paling normal diantara kami,,, Karena dia tidak pernah bertingkah aneh-aneh. Yu` Dina dan mbak Elle adalah sepasang wanita yang serasi karena terlalu serasinya mereka, mereka hendak menjodohkan anak mereka... bHahahha... What a silly things anymore...

Dan kami selalu membuat heboh dan selalu selalu bertingkah seenak kami,.. Wah tak terasa waktu pelatihan tinggal 1 minggu dan semua orang akan kembali ke peradaban mereka masing-masing... ada yang kembali ke goa dan pantai... WHat a really memorable